On the Half Shell – Living in the Raw

Yes, muddling. I think that may be what I’m doing. Like muddling a cocktail, I think I am muddling through the days, my thoughts, my chores. Or maybe I’m “dazed and confused”. I feel unfocused. Sometimes I can be laser-focused, but not lately. I’m not sure of the problem. I have certainly prayed about it, but have no answer yet. I shall persevere.

At least my sourdough starter is not muddled. I passed the test of perseverance there. After several, and I mean SEVERAL, weeks, it became ALIVE and active, and I was able to have two very successful bread makings. I still need to work on the recipes and my technique, but I now know I can do it. So there is that….

I think I am feeling robbed of time. Time to do the things that I want and need to do. I’ve been working on an old desk project for several weeks now. But I never seem to have everything I need and no way to get whatever that is. Whether it’s something from “The Great”’s workshop, Lowe’s, Hobby Lobby, or wherever. Or as soon as I start working, something else has to be done – something more important.

There is just never enough time. Never. I try to use my time wisely, yet it’s never enough. At least no one can say I’m “idle”. THAT IS FOR SURE! :).

There is certainly nothing unusual about the things i have written in this post. It’s a common thread amongst women – men too, for that matter. But it does help to write or talk about it. I often wonder if Jesus, in HIS daily life on earth, went to sleep at night lamenting the things HE didn’t finish that day. I need to concentrate more on the prayer I recently learned and remember that I have prayed for God to give me the time to do the things HE wants me to accomplish that day, and let the rest go for another day. I keep forgetting to be sure to let my desires align with His direction. That needs to be etched into my very being. Today and every day from now on…

As my baby girl likes to say, “Peace and Blessings, Y’all”.

Eucharisteo

March 1, 2023