On the Half Shell – Living in the Raw

Well, I have both grandangel boys down for morning naps. Was enjoying a nice cup of coffee, and I remembered this little blog project. See? I told ya I had a hard time sticking with things like this. But honestly, I think this helps my clear my mind. I’m sitting here listening to the dryer spin towels round and round and thinking about how the world just keeps spinning round and round despite all the bad things that are happening in the world. Last Friday, a young wife/mother/teacher from Memphis was jogging early that morning before school —like she does most mornings. She was an avid runner/training for a marathon. She was abducted and brutally murdered – God only knows what else happened to her during the time she was with her evil kidnapper. He had been arrested previously for kidnapping and was freed from prison early for some stupid reason. I know you can’t judge a book by its cover, but in his pictures, he looks MEAN and EVIL. I cannot imagine the horror her family has gone through and will continue to live through. The has two young sons…it just makes me sick. I have not been sleeping well, and I believe it’s because she is on my mind. I think about my own two precious daughters and how they are always out and about running errands by themselves, and I think about Meggie, Katelyn, Casey, Allison, Caitlyn, KJ, Katie Grace, Madison, Kelli, Joy’s daughters, Britny and Hope and just ALL of the young girls I know who are just out there trying to make a living, take care of business and themselves and their families. I just worry about all of them. I have put them all in God’s hands and at the foot of the cross for HIM to look after. Yet, I am still overwhelmed with fear thinking about them being out alone.

Even though it’s a bright, beautiful, sunny day, it feels almost sinister. Like there is always something evil out there just waiting to pounce. Just like this new show that is coming out via Disney/FX called “Little Demon”…its about the Devil, the antichrist (who is female), and a whole host of other stuff I don’t even want to think about. It’s designed for adults, but it’s a cartoon, so naturally kids are going to be curious and most likely drawn to it. I just cannot think of a soul I know that would want to watch such filth. It’s just disturbing. The whole world right now is disturbing. The US political garbage is disturbing. The Dept of Justice is disturbing. The FBI is disturbing. I don’t know how these people sleep at night. Hell. I can’t sleep at night. When I’m playing in the floor with the boys, the world seems so sweet and so simple. Yet, it’s just NOT. Yes, there is sweetness and goodness in the world. I see it every day. But there is also so much evil. Maybe it’s not any worse today than in all the centuries before…maybe it’s just that we are bombarded with all the bad via the news. I try, oftentimes, to just be an ostrich, but then I feel like I’m out of the loop and have not clue of local or world events. It’s a delicate balance between knowing what you need to know and being consumed and obsessed with it all.

WOW. I had no idea that a cup of coffee, both boys sleeping and a few minutes alone was going to lead to all this gloom and doom. I apologize for that. Just trying to keep it real and “IN THE RAW”. Till next time, peace and blessings.